(This was her DP pic)
If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.
I always thought that LOVE was only true in fairy-tales until actually it happened to me and passed over. It was then I realized that OOH!!! SOMETHING JUST HAPPENED TO ME, WAS THAT LOVE…?
Unfortunately yes it was…
Unfortunate because I realized it after couple of months after this whole fairy-tale was sung. Well let me tell you, this post can either get very boring or a little emotional because it was really very hard for me to write this (all characters living or dead in this post are FACTUOIS and are very closely related to me, actually WERE closely related to me).
May 18th 2007, 11:46 p.m. (m not sure about the time, but somewhere around that).
It all began here. I had NEWLY got net connection for the 1st time in my life and I just went SCUBA-DIVING with it. I used to online 24hrs (8 to 9 actually) a day, went on sending friend requests to every other person on orkut (orkut was new then), I mean everyone was doing the same thing. Well back here, I just landed on this girl’s profile and jus dropped in a scrap. What caught my attention was her name, it was WEIRD (heard it for the 1st time).
I still remember her reply for my bizarre scrap. It was like:
Jay: Hey der, GM, jus drpd in 2 say tat ur DP pic sucks and I strongly believe tat ya pic wud hav been much more beautiful dan tat... =)
Vi$**!_!ta: Der’s stil 10 mins for morning n who are u 2 comment on ma pic..?
And then the conversation went on………………………….. and on…………………………………………… and on. By say around 4, we realized that we were fighting like kids over nothing and the best part was we still didn’t know for what we were fighting.
It all started there. In a couple of days, what were 1024 characters turned to 160 characters messages costing 0.05 paisa per message. And then we could hear voices for just 0.30 paisa per minute, thanks to IDEA (which was SPICE then). So, it was one hour of minimum talking and messages throughout the day.
To be frank, I don’t remember what we were speaking about because, seriously we just spoke shit. From Mc. VEGGIE with cheese and a large DIET COKE to a cross breed of St.BERNARD with a CHIHOAHOA. Everything. Because what mattered then was not about what were speaking but it was that sweet pleasure we got in hearing our voices, that sense of belongingness we shared.
We enjoyed each and every moment of that pleasure. It took us almost 4 months to meet (somewhere in mid-September), I don’t know why but we both were not comfortable meeting because we were so much addicted to our SPICE lingo that we seriously didn’t know what to do when we met. But somehow we did meet and it went pretty well.
The worse was yet to come. I don’t know from where but suddenly I acquired this weird attitude. I started to put on a lot of price. To be frank, I just ignored her. It’s like when you know that you’ve actually got something then you basically tend to ignore it since you know you have it. You know, it’s just like the Marginal utility theory or Herzberg’s theory. The same happened to me. I just stopped being the 1st person to make a move. I always waited for her to call or message me (you know how dumb we guys can get). It went on for almost a month and then she finally called it off (not that anything was going on between us). She came up to my face (actually called me up) and said “Look Baga (she used to call me so. It means IDIOT in Japanese), I don’t know what’s wrong with you, but I think I need a break” and stuff. And then GAME OVER.
I was like big deal, take a break. I’ve got no issues. I still had that masochistic attitude. I thought, ‘Let her go, I’ll find another one’.
Two months passed away and yet I received neither messages nor any calls from her and to be guileless, I had totally forgotten everything about her (almost everything). And then I got a cal on the New Year’s Eve. She was like “Hey, Wish you a happy new year”, then for the next 3 mins, we were like “What’s up”, “Nothing”, “U say wassup”, “Nothing” and then the phone goes down.
That’s for the 1st time, I felt that I was missing something (yet was not ready that I was missing her). I thought, let me wait for another week, she’ll surely call. That week turned out to be a month and yet she didn’t call me. It was then I figured out that I was being such a jerk and I should call her now.
So I call and all I hear is “The number you have called is temporarily disconnected. Please dial after sometime”. This went on for a month. Meanwhile, I scrapped her, dropped a post on her wall, poked her, buzzed her and tried everything possible, but was unfortunate enough to find no reply.
Since then till now, I’ve regretted every moment I spent without Cokee (tats what I called her. I still don’t hav a reason for that). It was two months after she called it off; I actually realized that I was in LOVE for the first time. And now I just miss every moment of that time, those funny names, her IIT dream, my fucked up sarcasm, EVERYTHING…
Today all I do is hope. Hope that she calls me back and I can say “How much I’ve missed her, how sorry I am, how desperate I am to tell her that she was looking like a hungry bitch munching on its meat (while she was gobbling the Mc.VEGGIE), that though I was not a science student I spent nights solving her physics papers. I just want to tell her that she is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. In simple words;
P.S. I love you (sorry couldn’t come up with something of my own in the last line).
What I’ve learnt: The whole story says what I’ve learnt.
Funny Facts: September 21st 2007, Mc Donald’s Brigade Road (First date)
We both were sitting in the opposite tables for 30 minutes. Giving glances when the other wasn’t looking (though we both knew we were staring). Then finally I make my move and go to her and speak. We shake hands and three seconds later she grins at me (I thought she was grinning at me because I held her hand for way too long time) but then discovered that my hand was slimy (that was because my hand was leaking extra melt cheese, mayonnaise and my saliva). I had totally forgotten that I was eating Mc.VEGGIE extra cheese before walking to her. That look probably was the best look I‘ve ever seen her with.
Eat well sleep safe.. Take care.. Have a Nice Day.. Sayonara.. =)
